Basically I'm near a depression or atleast a mental breakdown. Don't worry too much about it, it's hard times coming up (aka Exams), and teachers put our amount of tets and tasks in overdrive resulting in me and my perfectionistic ways to sometimes only get a couple hours a night. And possibly the next day falling at sleap a tad too early which means getting up earlier to continue whatever I was studying aswell. It's a vicious circle. And my grades aren't always as good as I think they should be in comparison to the amount of time I studied (most of the time thanks to teachers not keeping them to the deals and assuming we know all about what e've seen last year still). Apart from that I could seriosly use some support, people reminding me of the fact I will get through this and telling me that everything will be okay. Preferably someone I trust and the list of people I do trust isn't a very long one. Added up to that; I'm not the only one this busy either so it's not like too many people get that I'm pretty wrecked. (Oh yeah, I'm capable of acting chipper when I'm far from it.)

Also, I have to say to all of you who are lovely enough to leave constructive and/or really nice comments, to my best friends here on Da, especially Ingvild,Vickie and Jen, that I won't have time to answer notes and/or comments right now. But please, don't stop sending them, they kinda brighten up my day sometimes. I will probably keep myself busy answering 'em somewhat after the fifteenth of december.
Ingvild, I'll get back to you about the whole club thing aswell. I'm still up for the idea, obviously.

I'm really longing for christmas holidays. I want a christmas tree in the living room, fondue, the fields on the other side of my window to turn into white blankets of snow, snowball fights, hot chocolate while snow falls down outside and me wrapped in the softest blanket I can find, watching one of my favourite tv-series, or listening to music while reading a good book. I long for those (rather) simple things. And I want time to write again! Anyways, just found out, thanks to a news site (we have to do three examination tests of 'speaking' tomorrow, one English, one Dutch, one French (and possibly one German but that one will just be some kind of reading exercise probably... okay,okay, 'hopefully). In order to do the Dutch one right I need to find a news paper article , find a statement in it and defend it by using three diffrent kinds of arguments in front of the class , we have to have it all memorised aswell, aren't even allowed to bring along a tiny piece of paper. BUT my main problem is lack of a topic, no scratch that, lack of a GOOD topic.
Apart from that we also have a math test tomorrow and I'm always worried about those. Also have a tendency of studying those really well.

Oh, and I started writing this a couple of hours ago (first alinea) and now I started again, and I'm feeling a slight,slight bit happier. What can I say? Music heals. (Currently Someone New - Eskobar ft Heather Nova -> Let's just say I can relate to the lyrics quite well even though that has nothing to do with my ex. Actually kinda annoying I always need to say that aswell since I have an ex . -_-' How do I relate to it then? Well, ask me, if you're one of the small amount of people on the list I trust , I might tell you.)

So, before anyone would ask; How's love? Well, I'm gonna stick to my statement of 'Love hurts like hell sometimes and makes you feel like 'you belong' at others.' And I've just noticed this is one of those days I choose to listen to somewhat more calm songs again. Hm... what does this say about my mood? Try the lyrics of the songs.
"Someone new" - Heather Nova ft Eskobar
Somewhere only we know - Keane
Somewhere a clock is ticking - Snow Patrol
(I know, 'what's up with the somewheres?' , I searched somewhere in my Itunes list of songs I bought (Itunes is, according to me really handy yet the songs are expensive. Normally seen I only buy CD's, but since I've been given the newest Ipod nano by apple , my name gravured in it, for my previous birthday and an Itunes card of 50 euros, I decided to start buying songs. It's interesting you can choose one song of an album if it's the only one you really like yet on the other side it's expensive and they don't have every single song. ))
Oh, wait a second, I don't only like the sad/calm songs! I also like Kate Nashes pumpkin soup And of course We used to be friends by The Dandy Warhols (boy,can I relate to that one...)
Also, since wandering through news articles I did the whole 'leasure test' of Magnum (the ice cream brand,yup) and scored 180 with extreme appreciation of music. It's rather amusing that test thingie, very nicely made.

Now, let's waste some time to promote some of the works of some of my Da friends.

Jen; my 'big sis', my support,one of my best friends, which I miss terribly because I haven't heard of her for a while now and she promised to come back to da everytime even if just for me, so she better stick to that promise (if not, I still have her mail adress of course though )

JEEEEN!! What did you do with anscestras!!? I can't find it in your gallery O.o

Ingvild : This woman could be my twin sis, seperated at birth, we have the exact same interests, mostly same taste in music,books,films, and yeah, even men. She is one of the most amazing people I've ever had the pleasure of meeting and she better keeps on rockin' the way she does Oh, and she's bloody gorgeous, don't believe her if she says she isn't


Vickie : Ah, my fun, strong-willed,highly amusing friend who shows resemblace to Azula in many of her deviations She keeps on progressing in her drawing and colouring skills and she's so fun to talk to Keep the blazing fire in your personality alive,hun ^^


Brett: My little sis' (aka niece) who just decided to turn to a deviantartist aswell. ^^ We're nieces but as close as sisters, she's beautiful,talented,nice,fun and maybe a tad stubborn (might have got that by spending too much time around me though )


Senelfy: She always is so concerned about me ^^ She's great,really, I really like her. She asked me to be her exclusive model after watching my pics of,well,me And I'm not one hundred procent sure about wether I'm gonna say yes or no to that offer She also is really nice and an amazing photomanipulation artist (hence why the exclusive model thing ):


Gem: She's got this 'you learn something every day' project going on, it's a very interesting concept. Plus; once again, she's fun and nice ! And also amazing at traditional art. A highly underestimated artist. ^^


That'll do for now

Thanks to ninja assassin for the journal thingies!!!

(about the art status and links, I dunno how to change those )

-Indra